FYI: This post is senseless whining by a sick person. Consider yourself forewarned. ;)
The stupid virus that I previously mentioned is still raging strong in my household. My parents and grandfather, who live in their houses next door, are still sick with it too. I worry about my Grandpa having this. I cannot imagine being 90 years old and having this crap.
Not being able to do my normal activities (however limited they may be) is driving me nuts. The upper & lower respiratory infection part of it, is sucking the life out of every one of us. I’m sick of congestion, sore throat, fever, chilling, and aching. It has turned me into a whiny little baby that just wants to sit around and say “Ohhhhhhh I wish I felt better.” 500 times a day. Which is not my typical behavior.
This virus must have some sort of “whine switch” that it triggers. We are all whiny; myself, my husband, the kids, even the baby. It’s pathetic. We have been reduced to a household of pathetic whiners.
Sleep is a hard commodity to come by. We cough so much that we sound more like a kennel of dogs, than a household of people.
I spent most of last night curled up under a comforter, using paper towels for tissues, and watching Disc 1 of Mad Men Season 4 on DVD. Because I couldn’t sleep and didn’t feel like doing anything else.
Our ears are so full of fluid that none of us can hear well, and our sinuses are so congested that we all talk funny. Which only adds to the problem of not being able to hear each other well. At times, our attempts at conversation seem more like comedy skits.
I had to call to reschedule the start of my new round of physical therapy for the second time. Grrrr And when I sat it up for next week, the nice lady at the PT clinic was like “Are you sure you don’t want to give it two weeks to get better?” Clearly I must sound bad. But I can’t put it off for another week because of a stupid new rule about the expiration of PT orders – 1 month. Now 1 month might sound like a lot of time, but it really isn’t. Not when it takes awhile to get the initial appointment sat up, and now I’ve had to cancel. So hopefully I can make it there next week or my order to start will be expired.
On top of that, spring pollen just went into full swing here, increasing my misery. I think I sat a world record for sneezes yesterday. But the wheezing and coughing is really wearing me out. This must be a rather powerful virus to be able to completely overwhelm the massive amounts of (drying) antihistamine that I take for my allergies this time of year.
Here are a few of the reasons this has been difficult for me:
- severe allergies & asthma.
- a disease that affects all of my muscles, including those used for breathing.
- 4 fully-broken and 2 cracked ribs that refuse to heal.
I had been ever-so-slightly improving each day, at least during the day time hours. But today I have been so much worse than yesterday. I really hope I am not on the road to getting pneumonia. I DO NOT want pneumonia again!
So today I am back to trying to push lots of extra of water in an attempt to thin this congestion. It is helping a little. But the one day that I tried this last week, I spent the following night violently refluxing in my sleep and waking up inhaling it. Oh – that was great fun. NOT!
I am just so over this crap. I am tired of it hijacking my life and I’m ready to get back to normal again. Or at least back to my normal again I should say. (If only it were that simple.)
What I do know is this: I’ve got to put this whiny attitude away because any time in my life that I have ever felt sorry for myself, things always got worse. So I try real hard not to do that.
If you made it this far reading this crappy post, then thank you for caring that much! :) And hopefully I can be in better spirits soon. I’m not actually in all that bad of a mood per se, I just want to feel better!